A sunrise with Uzair! After what seemed like eons! Just me and Uzzi on Clifton Beach, sitting next to each other…watching the waves crash onto the shore as we dug our toes into the sea sand…it was sooooo good to see him in the flesh and not over a once in a blue moon skype convo! We had a lot of catching up to do…the lot of us had barely slept last night and Uzzi and I decided to head down to the beach for a stroll after fajr…
Me: you were so vague in your emails Uzzi…the one minute you’re so happy and the next you’re off to Africa to find yourself…how did you ever do it..how did you know what to do?
Uzair: (shrugging his shoulders) Life happened Aaroo. Believe me I’ve been on one helluva emotional roller coaster
I felt so guilty! We kept in touch but clearly not enough….Uzair my most beloved cousin and confidante…why did life take us so far away from each other…
Uzair: (Sighing) you remember yasmeen? The first one. She pushed me to do something I would never do! (Chuckling to himself) I mean look at me, just last week I was in some village helping strangers. And aara, I was happy. It was a jump I can tell you that…. But why you asking me this (nudging her shoulder)
Me: because I think I need to follow you to one of those villages! (Laughing) seriously though Uzzi…I feel as though I’m at a crossroads in my life…I’m at a place that I really don’t want to be in…
Uzair: (laughing) Eh Aaroo, you wont survive five minutes in that place! No wifi no nothing! (looking at her quizzically) Now tell me…. why exactly do you not want to be at this crossroad? What have you been hiding from me Missy (tickling her sides)
Me: (jumping like a grasshopper) no man Uzzi you know I’m like extra extra ticklish! (Sighing) two words…or two names rather…Zoheb and Nemo…Zoheb has been very upfront…he wants more than just friendship and I really like him…Nemo on the other hand…Uz I’m being honest…I can see what he’s trying to say and do…and there is a chance that I may be wrong but I doubt it….Zoheb is like a breath of fresh air…he’s everything I could ever want…and Nemo…Nemo is my best friend…and….my first love…
Uzair: Talk about boy problems. (running his fingers through his hair) Your first love versus a guy who just walked into your life… (tilting his head to the side) Tell me something,Naeem or your Nemo rather, care to explain what you’ve been hiding? (raising an eyebrow) I thought we never kept any secrets
Me: where do I start Uzair…the past few years have been anything but easy….maybe its true that a guy and girl can’t only be just friends…ok rephrase…a single guy and a single girl can’t just be friends…and no (linking my arm in his) no secrets….it was puppy love…and then when we came to campus I realised it was indeed much more..except…except Nemo didn’t seem to reciprocate my feelings…I never told him anything…I remained a friend…I have been to hell and back for him and with him…there was a time when he actually stopped talking to me….(And I proceeded to tell Uzair what went down between Nemo and I and how he ended up back in Durban and how Riza and I brought him back) and ever since then…we have been rebuilding our friendship but it hasn’t been awkward at all..I made myself understand that what I felt for him was probably just a phase and I drowned myself in studies and then work…it’s just…recently…recently he’s been doing things and saying things that’s making me question my heart…
Uzair: I second that sista! No single guy and girl can ever be ‘just friends’. Awww Aaroo, I could’ve nursed your heart for you! And NO! Looking at what you did for him, there is no way in hell that was just puppy love! You loved him Aara, maybe you still doo… But then think, is he the same Naeem you loved all those years ago? Will you ever be able to love him in that way again? (his eyes widening) Now it makes sense! THIS is why you were always reluctant to see other guys! He broke your heart by never realising you loved him. Oooh Aara (squeezing her hand) And these ‘things’ he tells you, what does your heart tell you?
Me: (hands on my head) I don’t know Uzzi…like just the other day when we bungeed off Bloukrans…he told me he would want to jump with me for the rest of his life!!! What is that supposed to mean??
He’s been acting very possessive ever since Zoheb has come in the picture..and like last night he had this hurt look on his face and it really broke me….will I ever be able to fall in love with him again…I don’t know…I don’t know…a part of me feels as though we are meant to be together and I should forget the past and just try…a part of me wants to move on without him…AND a part of me is wondering if I’m reading too much into his signals because I cannot possibly set myself up for disappointment again urrrrgggh why does it have to be so bloody complicated!
Uzair: Shhhh (taking her hands off her head) Calm down Aara. The male species can be very hard to read (wink) And as for what Naeem said, he decides to be a romantic while you two are dangling from a bridge. Not his best move (trying not to smile) And nobody likes a jealous cat, no no no! Jealousy is the worst thing a guy could have especially when you’re not even his. I can see this attention from Nemo…. it seems to be overwhelming for you. (looking at her quizzically) You’re obviously confused and believe me, speaking from experience, once you experience a heartbreak you don’t EVER want to experience it again. (taking a deep breath in and out) So here’s what you’re going to do, you’re going to tell me about this Zoheb guy. He seems nice and from what I saw last night…uhm…and not forgetting the dancing on the feet thing!
Me: my brother from another mother (laughing and pulling Uzair’s cheeks) sorry I just found the whole Nemo dangling from a bridge and your take on it highly funny!
Zoheb…. doesn’t overwhelm me to a point where I don’t know what to do…instead…picture a butterfly…flying around freely..that’s what I feel like with Zoheb….I didn’t tell you (hands up and down )he kissed my hand! Caught me totally offguard…we’ve had some really sweet moments…and its a plus that he’s sinfully gorgeous! (Covering my eyes)
But but but….what if wake up ten years later and realise that I’m not waking up next to the love of my life? What would you do, if Yasmeen were to come back into your life? After what…3 years…
Uzair: (his eyes widening) Yoohh you bringing Yasmeen into this (smirking winking and running his fingers through his hair) to be honest, I don’t know what I’d do. Thing is Aara, we made our choices a long time ago. The minute she picked Zaheer I knew she would always love him more. She might love me, but it would be Zaheer. Always. I still love her and care for her but… (Swallowing) but I know for sure, she wont come back to me. And that’s what you need to be sure of. You need to know who you can picture spending the rest of your life with. This Zoheb guy I get what you mean, he’s new to you. You’re scared one day you’ll wake up and you’ll just stop loving him. But then you need to find true love Aara. You need to find someone you know that you will love till the day you die. Someone who will be there for you, always. Someone who will love you for who you are, with all your flaws. That’s true love aara, there’s no second guessing when it comes to true love. When it happens it happens. You’ll feel all warm on the inside because that special someone makes you feel loved and you’ll know… You’ll just know that that is the person you want to spend your life with. That their face is what you want to wake up to every morning. And hey, no ones asking you to have the answers now. (Draping an arm around her shoulder) So don’t freak out….
But what I suggest you do is just… Breathe. 3 deep breaths Aara. In out and clear your mind.
Sorry, the seaside brings out my romantic side (wink) what can I say, I was born to be Romeo
Me: (totally gobsmacked)now you see why I need you in my life! I can’t have you going off to another village anytime soon( arm around Uzair’s neck)
My seaside Romeo( imitating Uzair by running my fingers through my hair)that has got to be theeee most amazing piece of advice ever…I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you or make you remember something you didn’t want to by asking about Yasmeen…she’s not married to Zaheer so you know…*winking* sorry…and you’re right…true love is the love that’s for keeps…to be honest even though my head is somewhat clear now I will still have that confusion with both of them around me…but perhaps I should enjoy the attention (laughing) and just take it one step at a time…the only thing is..I will totally run away if any one of them has to like propose right now! I’m just going to be me me me…I love you bro..what would I ever do without you
Uzair: well… You’d die without me kiddo (ruffling her hair) love you too Aaroo!
And its fine. Yasmeen and I… I like how we left things between us. We friends.
Eh, I’m with you sista! Now isn’t the time to be getting married, well for me I don’t think so. We can be single pringles for a little while longer (wink) and if you feel you can’t think clearly around them, forget that they exist! Just have a good time man! You in Cape Town! Live it up while you can Aara. And DEFINITELY enjoy the attention you getting from Z and N. You can just boss them around. Eish I feel sorry for them already (nudging her shoulder)
Me: (punching Uzair playfully) very funny (sticking my tongue out at him)….yesssss I’m in Cape Town woohooo and so are you :-p
Since you came back for me *batting my eyelashes* what say we put all this emotional drama aside and paint the town red,yellow,blue and green?
Uzair: I say hell yeah! But before we go act like loonies in public, I think I deserve some ice cream after listening to aaaaaall those boy stories (wink)
Me: ice cream now???? you can have two ice creams how’s that? (Grinning like an idiot) Uzair…no matter what happens and where ever we go in this world..or wherever you go in this world rather :-p .always remember that I will always be there for you…however, whenever….relationships are like threads of cotton…cut it through time and distance…but they can always be rejoined…like knots…and this is our knot today*hugging him*
Uzair: (hugging Aara) That nearly brought tears to my eyes doll! But I’m a guy and big boys don’t cry (sidewards smile) its like a universal law and I’d be breakin it if I cried in front of you. (Looking at Aara) I’m glad we did this Aaroo. Who knows when I’m next going to see you… Come. My ice cream awaits (smiling like a 5 year old)
And I guess life takes you away from those close to you…to bring them back when you need them the most…and with it create memories that stay forever etched in your heart,mind and soul…
ℓ☺ℓ okay I didn’t anticipate that kind of a reaction when I put up the poll! You guys rock-ALL of YOU!
Please note: Uzair is just a guest appearance…a surprise treat for u readers…his role in LLD is not permanent…