As narrated by Zoheb:
“Stay with me!!!”,Maariah shouted as she tapped Aara’s face
But Aara was dozing off again…
“It’s important for her to remain conscious “,she said as she tried to stop the bleeding with our jackets
There was blood all over….my shirt was soaked and so was Aara. Maariah and I were in the back seat of Immy’s car, and Riza and Immy were at the front. The rest of them followed close behind.
”She’s drifting in and out of consciousness Nemo…and the bleeding isn’t stopping, I’ve already spoken to Dr. Jamal…yes, Maariah is trying to keep her awake’, Riza said into his phone as he swallowed his tears
“Immy faster please. ..she’s losing a lot of blood “, Maariah pleaded as she splashed some water on Aara’s face
I held onto Aara as panic and despair ran through my body, holding her hand gently, reading every dua that came to my mind. Hot tears ran down my cheeks at the daunting reality of what might actually be our fate. I looked at her as she stared at me with half open eyes…
” Don’t leave me. ..”, I whispered as I kissed her forehead
A tear escaped her eye as she tried to hold my hand, when suddenly the pace of her breathing increased rapidly, sending the four of us into a frenzy, and as we reached the hospital, she closed her eyes and I felt her body go limp in my hands…
**Meanwhile, a few kilometers away, a letter had just made it in time for that days international mail…**
A letter to Uzair…From: Aara
As I pen this letter to you, I wonder if it will ever reach you. As I write, I cannot help but feel a tinge of jealousy as I think about you, out there somewhere, free to do what you do best. I can almost picture you smile as you give out that hamper of food, as you lend a hand with digging a borehole, as you serve mankind from the bottom of your heart. How lucky are those people who have the honor of your company.
I hope that you are reading this under the stars, as a gentle breeze causes this letter to flutter, and I hope that you are able to see me in front of you, just for a moment, as we were as children.
A familiar feeling fills my heart with a contentment that knows no bounds as I reminisce the age of innocence. A time when there was no worry, and our biggest problem was probably choosing between chocolate and strawberry flavoured ice creams! Life was simple, it was easy. And yes , we looked forward to growing up thinking that our concept of life would never change, ever. But it does doesn’t it? We tackle new challenges head on in sheer exhilaration and with every ounce of passion that exists within us! The bonus being that now we are tall enough to ride that roller coaster. ..lol.
I wonder how our parents knew when they found each other, that this was the one. ..because what we look for and what we die for…whe don’t even realise that the collateral damage in it all is ourselves . You’re probably wondering what the heck is Aara going on about. ..stay with me, I promise that there’s a point
I guess maybe it’s the loneliness that has afforded me the opportunity to reflect, ponder and realise that life doesn’t come full circle when we face a big disappointment or when things don’t go as they hoped. There are many questions to which we may never know the answer but we have to accept it as part of life.
So while I bite into this delightful Magnum, I can’t help but wonder if we are only meant to enjoy the good stuff before it melts? Or uhm we could always just go get another Magnum! Lol…just saying 😜
Drifting, I know I know , I guess what I am trying to say is:
1. I am heartbroken
2. I may need you to break a few bones for me
3 . I am exaggerating
4. I miss you
So the point of this is that there is no particular point at all, I was thinking about you and I have been told that the only way to reach you is via snail mail. So I had to rant using this as a means.
I will not go into detail about the who, where, why of it all..consider it a bout of suspense, so that you can come home soon or so that you would possibly, just maybe send me a reply. Life has dealt me the biggest blow yet, pushing me beneath the surface and holding me there, and while I know that everything happens for a reason, I didn’t wish for it to happen this way. Sometimes I feel that if I, we, everyone just does things in the right way, we wouldn’t end up being casualties of our own war. We are the ones who complicate our lives by walking on the wrong paths and no matter how many rights may be in it , what is wrong will always be wrong.
But change is a gradual process, a humbling challenge that can eventually define a person, without criticising, without being looked down upon. ..change is mandatory to our very being. And sometimes we react irrationally , when the shock of reality strikes us like a bolt of lightening, but we are human and to err is in our nature.
Allah has indeed blessed me with the best of people in my life…In my happiness and sadness, a group of companions who never ever leave me.
I look back at my life thus far, and at the lives of my friends and I realise that every single one of us has changed, in small ways , in good ways as we climb the ladders of our future and even those who were the so called weaker ones are becoming stronger by the day. What is weakness anyway, just a temporary hurdle in our paths.
I cannot help but think of Arshad when I say this, Arshoo who used to be quiet, reserved, uncertain and nervous when we first met him, proved that strength also lies in silence, Arshoo gave that to Riza and I when we were dealing with Nemo and even after that. I know that you didn’t get to know Zainab much but even she has come a long way. Her choices are bringing her to a crossroads in her life yet again and I have faith that she will do what is right and not what looks right.
Nemo and I were at Riza’s house today to pay the notorious Mrs . Ahmed a visit, to try and make her see that building a lineage is not the end all and be all of life and that Allah’s plan is far greater than our understanding. I hope that, after she kicked us out, she sat down and thought about what we said. You know how much Laeeka and Riza mean to me Uzzi, how can I be happy when I know that they are miserable?
By the way, our newly married couple are totes adorable! Looking at them, warms my heart, it makes me realise that taking the plunge is so worth it after all, it’s just so cute watching them together, lol they remind me of Nuha and Umar!
Don’t bother scrolling down to read about your Zoo, because I will not give him the satisfaction of being a part of this letter 😛 . When he gets back from New Zealand, I will put him into a large box and post him to you. Hmph
I didn’t know that this letter would make me feel lighter, even though you’re not here , I feel as though I’m standing right in front of you and telling you all of this.
Tomorrow is a big day for us, remember that Amreen Vawda story I told you about? Well, we have been playing detective with Immy and hopefully after tomorrow we can close that chapter of our lives and end it once and for all.
I can go on and on, but Nemo is on his way to see me, hopefully with something good to eat..😄
Take care of yourself Uzair, I don’t know when I’ll see you again but always remember that I love you lots and I will always be eternally grateful for having you as a part of my life. If I never said it before, thank you, for always being there, for all your advice and help, for the smiles and the memories, for the laughter and the madness, for everything. ..
Wish you all the happiness of this world and the next. ..
Until we meet again,